I want to say that the internet was down at the academy in Auburn, WA, as well as the cell service at every coffee shop, restaurant, airport and even my house until this moment, as that would excuse me breaking my streak of consecutive blog posts. Unfortunately, I don't think that'd be believable.
It has been a crazy few days though, and lately I've been realizing that blogging every single day may not be the most effective daily discipline at this stage of my life. If I blog daily, then some of it is just fluff and most people won't read it because it doesn't apply to them. Also, if it becomes just a job then you end up with a lot of posts that are meaningless and mindless, even to me. That just seems like a waste. And at this point in my life, I don't feel that I have the time to waste.
Let me explain.
I don't work out exercise daily. I've talked about this. However, I have back problems and I may not be Pre-Subway Jared, but I can feel in my heart and lungs that they aren't keeping up with stairs and brisk walks like they used to. I can't play sports that I love anymore for an hour without being stiff and achy immediately after. I know the exercises that I need to do daily to help fix these issues, but the problem has been that I don't have the discipline.
Also, the reason I went to Seattle this past weekend was to do a concert and lead worship for The Current, and independent ministry that I started along with four close friends about 9 months ago. Our dream is to help inspire and train ministry leaders (primarily youth at the moment) while worshiping alongside them. It is something that God put on all our hearts individually and then beautifully tied us and our dreams together, and it is a ministry that we hope to be a part of for the rest of our lives! It is slow-going, but it is even slower because I haven't had the discipline to work on these ministry projects consistently.
Last, and most important, my spiritual cup has been running low for a while now. This tends to happen when I am not spending personal time with Jesus. I've been talking about Him, preaching about Him, singing about Him, teaching about Him, and praying to Him, but when I don't just spend time learning and listening to Him, I end up running on empty. I need the daily discipline of spending time with my Creator, but I haven't had it in ages.
I believe that through this project I've built up some of the discipline necessary to start tackling these things daily, so I'm going to break my "EVERY SINGLE DAY FOREVER" pledge. Since only one individual ever asked to be on my "List" of people I'd pay a dollar to for every missed day, this won't cost me much.
I'm actually excited to blog about some of the daily disciplines I plan on undertaking! I've already set some impending ministry project deadlines for myself, and I'm on day 5 of 30 doing 100 push-ups daily. I'm weak, tired, and pretty much a constant failure, but I'm okay with it because in order to fail constantly that means I'm constantly trying, and eventually I have to encounter success, right?